I’ve always been hesitant to write or mark up any book other than my Bible. When I was younger, I took good care of my books always thinking that I may decide to sell them later on. And I often times did sell them for a decent price. By putting myself in this “resale mode”, I believe I made myself afraid of writing in ANY book. I’m trying to reset that train of thought today.

I have always been an ambitious kind of gal. But I never expected this. I didn’t think that I’d find myself every day waking up to surprises from God so huge that I would literally shake in my seat, overwhelmed with excitement. I didn’t think I’d be anyone all that special; I’ve always been just an ordinary little redhead with a big attitude. However, what I’ve been encountering lately is by no means what one would consider ordinary.

As I sat here tonight in front of my MacBook, filled with awe over everything that has transpired over the past few weeks, I wondered what I did to deserve it all. I’m not any better than my friends or family. What was it that God saw in me worth rewarding? I am a simple girl with big dreams. I am no more than a 20 year old homeschool graduate that still lives with her parents with not a day of college to her name. I work in an itty bitty retail store part time, sorting through boxes of freight and putting clothes on hangers. It almost sounds as if I’m hiding away from the world, doesn’t it? 

“His master replied, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master’s happiness!’”  -Matthew 25:23, NIV

Really, God, really?? I’ve always been well-behaved, mannerly, and I’ve always enjoyed being around people. I’ve sought out God in a deeper way over the past few years and I’ve passed the test in the struggles. Really, God? Am I worthy of such great blessings?

If this is what it’s like to live under the reign of the Most High King, then I want no other life. Sharing in my Master’s happiness as the verse in Matthew says, is the most wonderful state of mind I’ve ever experienced.

I’ve been a bit under the weather since yesterday. What started out feeling like severe allergies, has turned into more like a touch of the flu. Blah!! I have been itching to write but I feel too crappy to focus on the text on the computer screen. I ended up watching a little TV and sleeping most of the day. It’s almost 2:30 a.m. now, so it’s time to get some rest. Goodnight!

My blog title really isn’t an expression of what I’m feeling right now. It’s probably leaning more towards the air of sarcasm, but we’ll pretend that’s not the case. These last couple of days, I’ve been sending out hundreds of emails to homeschool groups around the US, informing them of the existence of Bit & Bridle Magazine. It’s a lot of tedious work, but I pray it pays off. I’ve already been seeing some interest so I believe the results will be good. The thought to start my email chain was birthed by the memory of how I first learned of B&B. It was through an email, sent to my mom a few years ago by a homeschool group in my area. Who would’ve thought I’d be editor a few short years later. Huh. God works in mysterious ways! I won’t complain about that one. So that’s what I’ve been busying myself with these week.

Btw, I added 550 words to the book tonight, even amidst all the emails I was sending. It feels good to accomplish many tasks at once!

I just realized that I don’t have any of the Spiderman movies on DVD, which means I can’t watch the one I do have on my laptop. Annoying. I’m trying to catch up on all of the super-hero movies made with hopes it will give me ideas for my book, but apparently the only thing I own is Spiderman 1 on VHS. Again, that’s just annoying. I guess I need to hit up eBay or find out if any of my friends want to loan me their DVDs while I study up. I also still need to purchase the original Superman movie, because watching Superman Returns is getting a little old at this point.

I took a blow to the head on Sunday night that left quite the bruise. Here I am, nearly a week later, and it’s just starting to turn black, blue, and yellow around my eyes. Ick! I have a Mary Kay class tomorrow night, so hopefully I can hide the discoloration. :p If not, then I’ll definitely raise some eyebrows for sure!! (To clarify what happened, I slipped on the ice outside and fell face first, hitting my forehead on a pile of wood. )

I added 1,400 words to my book today…maybe I’ll write even more later tonight. I find that when one is bed-ridden due to a wacked head and a nauseous stomach, it’s fairly easy to get some extra writing done.

Oh, and check out the new Mary Kay blog I just set up for my unit director. It looks pretty sweet, if I do say so myself.