I Won’t Be Broken

Apr 20, 2011 by mandeewidrick

I’m currently sitting in the Borders café right now, catching up on at least 2 days of work. My beloved MacBook is in for repair at a local store because it decided to go psycho on me yesterday morning and I’ve had intermittent computer access ever since. Which means, in short, that I’m on a borrowed MacBook Pro. Mind you, I can’t complain, because this MacBook Pro is way cooler than my own MacBook. It’s speedy. It’s silver. It’s awesome. Too bad it’s not mine.

 

I have no idea what’s going on with my own computer at the shop yet. There’s talk of it being a $300+ repair job if it’s what everyone thinks it is (the logic board). Not gonna lie…that’s pretty sucky.

 

So yeah, it’s been a long couple of days. One thing after the next has gone wrong. My computer won’t work. The driver’s side door on my car has decided to stop unlocking (I have to open the door behind it and reach through to open it). And then there was…oh wait, I guess that’s it. Or at least that’s all I want to talk about right now, ha. It was primarily the computer problems that had me in a tither. When a computer plays such a big role in one’s job – as in, MY job – it’s a big deal when it’s not working. Every other problem in life seems elevated, because I freak out when my means of making money and doing business as normal is stripped from me.

Truth is, I wanted to slam my head down on a desk and groan so loud that somebody would come running, feel sorry for me, and then fix all of my problems (tech-related and not) with the snap of a finger. I’m smiling in Borders now as I envision such a scenario. That would’ve been pathetically awful and ever so unattractive.

 

As I was driving to the city today to drop off my MacBook today, I mentally determined that I would not be broken. I would not be stopped. I would not give up. I would not cry or scream or break anything (and I hadn’t yet done any of those things up to that point, so in my mind I was doing pretty well). I would be just fine.

 

I dropped the MacBook off. I drove to the office where I work a few days a week, and opened up my borrowed MacBook Pro.

 

It wouldn’t connect to the internet.

Good grief. Seriously?!? At about that point, I really wanted to kick something.

 

An hour later, after multiple restarts, resets, and 40 minutes on the phone with AppleCare, I determined it was a problem with the internet connection. I took off for Borders and was never so grateful for their free wifi.

 

Yeah, it’s been a long week. Multiple things have crapped out on me lately, but I won’t be broken. I won’t be stopped. I’ll overcome every obstacle that comes, one way or another, because that’s what pursuing greatness is all about. In the end, I’ll be a better person because of it all. I think that deserves a loud “Boo yah!”

“Don’t wait until everything is just right. It will never be perfect. There will always be challenges, obstacles and less than perfect conditions. So what. Get started now. With each step you take, you will grow stronger and stronger, more and more skilled, more and more self-confident and more and more successful.” -Mark Victor Hansen