Are you scared to run?

Jun 18, 2009 by mandeewidrick

Sorry guys, no video today. I’m just ever so sleepy right now. However, I do have some thoughts tonight that I wanted to share. 

A thought was prompted tonight after I visited with my Mary Kay director who is visiting from out of town. I was thinking about how I feel torn many times between all of my many endeavors. Obviously, my main and first priority lies with Bit & Bridle, though at the present time I really need another job to supplement my income as I build that business. I thought about the many things I’d tried, and the many things I’d started to do but been too cautious to follow through with. And then I remembered a situation I’d been dealing with about a year ago.

Last June (of 2008), I took my mare for training at Durand’s East Edge Ranch. My main issue with this horse was the fact that she’d been bullying me at the canter, to the extent that I was too timid to attempt the gait without supervision of an experienced rider. I recall my trainer telling me that my horse knew when I wasn’t ready for the canter. I was asking for it, but I didn’t want it bad enough to make her do it. The speed of the pace was scaring me, and even though I wanted to have faith that it would turn out okay, I wasn’t confident in it. Therefore, my horse would rarely canter. (For ME, anyway.)

One month later, it was time to bring my horse home and I was still a bit intimidated. A couple weeks passed and then it clicked with me…my horse knew I was being wishy washy. I wasn’t going to get results if I didn’t really want it to begin with. OHHHHHHH. Gotcha. 

And everything changed after I made the realization.

I realize that I still have some of those wishy washy tendencies at times. I know what I want, but sometimes I don’t try hard enough to get it. Then when it doesn’t turn out quite right, it’s because I’m asking for the canter but I’m not ready for it. I’ve grown in knowledge and learned so much over the past couple of years, but I still hesitate.

Sometimes I just have to go for it, and run.